Growing, growing, growing...

I am not sure why I thought Ford was still little?! Today I decided to reorganize all of the clothing he has out grown, hoping to condense it a little more then it is. Plus, there is a stack of all different sizes that just never got packed in their respective boxes.

Oh boy was this a bad idea... Opening up the Newborn tote, I started getting flash backs, of how small he used to be. The preemie sleeper that he wore the first night we had him home is smaller then the onesie he is wearing today [pictured below]. Thinking back on the fact that the preemie sleeper when all the way to his feet, brings tears to my eyes. There is ONE newborn diaper left, I guess I kept it as a keepsake, to remember how small me really was. When we had to fold over the front of it so it was small enough for him to actually wear!

I can think back with each shirt, jacket and pair of pants and tell you something about the day he wore each of them. It is crazy to think that in the last (almost) 17 months, he has done SO much. We have so many memories, in this short amount of time.

He is currently feeding HIMSELF lunch next to me, telling me, "All Du" and giving me the sign for "finished"... I don't remember the specific point in which he has gotten to be so independent and BIG... But he has, as much as it breaks my heart that really, he is no longer a BABY, I know in my heart he always will be MY baby, 6lbs 5oz, taking his first breath laying on my chest...

Operation Feel Good

So I have stonewalled myself at my pre-pregnancy weight for the last 15 months. ENOUGH!

Diet, exercise, lifestyle change, blah blah blah. Everyone has their own way and reason to lose weight.

What is mine?

I want to FELL GOOD!!! So I am calling my weigh loss journey... OPERATION FEEL GOOD!

Every woman loses a bit of herself when she becomes a MOM, we go from taking care of ourselves and those close to us (husband, fiancée, boyfriend, etc.) to taking care of something IN us and then another human (or humans) that are PART OF US... We sacrifice, time, sleep, food, etc for these beings. Would I or any other mother I know have it ANY OTHER WAY, no!!! BUT... We all need to do SOMETHING for ourselves and I am getting fit!

My rules for this weight loss are simple;

1) Goal weight is 30lbs lost BUT when I feel good I will maintain!
2) IF I cannot fit into my vast array of jeans when I hit my "feel good" point. I will THROW THEM OUT! I will not mop around that I can't fit into a pair of PANTS!
3) This is 100% for ME! I want my sexy back, I want to FEEL like a woman again!

I am following Weight Watchers and doing Power 90 and Brazil Butt Lift from Team beach body. I highly recommend the workouts and having some sort of food intake tracker. It makes you think about what you put in your mouth!!! I like that I can track my workouts while tracking food. Plus watching activity points rack up is AMAZING!!

My goal is to be FEELING GOOD by May 15th!! I have already lost 3.5 lbs since the 31st so I think I'm on my way!