Saturday, May 18, 2013

Growing up...

I have always said to Luke, "one day you will wake up and Ford will be ten". I say it because I know it's true. Everyone says to us, "cherish these days, they grow up fast." "Don't blink, he will be in college before you know it" "if you aren't looking, you'll be a grandparent before you know it" ....... My heart aches so much sometimes to realize that all of these people once laid in bed like I am doing, wondering about their sleeping children; if it is really true that they grow up THAT fast. It seems like yesterday that I had my first horse lesson, first date, first day of high school, last day, got engaged, married, turned 21, moved to Alaska, found out I was pregnant, had Ford, watched him smile for the first time, watched him crawl and walk and run. 

The answer of "do they grow up THAT fast" is simple, they grow up faster then we, as parents, can ever imagine. Ford isn't even two yet and I have cried countless times about the fact that he has out grown his preemie sleeper that Kelsey got him when he was born, that he will never have SO many first again, but that there are still SO many to come. I honestly do not know where the last ONE AND THREE QUARTER YEARS has gone. I know I will wake up tomorrow and he will be married, so it won't actually be "tomorrow" but close enough, at this rate he will be 50 before I can blink! 

I am SO SO SO lucky to have a family that has instilled such amazing memories into my life, so that I knew from the beginning that life goes by WAY to fast for anyone's liking and that if you don't enjoy every second of babyhood, childhood and general life, it will be gone before you know it. 

I enjoy each day and every second that I get to share with Ford, he is such an AMAZING, independent and self assured little man! But no matter how much I adore and love him for the me that I see in him, it makes me so incredibly sad that he is day-by-day slowly letting go of me and learning his own way in this crazy world, I honestly can't imagine how I will feel in 16 years when he is graduating high school, if I feel this way now. 

If I had any advice to share with someone about being a parent it is; really, truly, time flies, there is nothing more special then your children, no time wasted with them, nothing makes you feel more fulfilled in life then watching them figure something out, laugh for the first time, learn to run or climb, no matter how scary it is for us, they become little PEOPLE so fast, you must treasure every waking second and a few (okay, a lot) of sleeping ones too.... If you don't you will wake up one day and realize your kids are grown, even if they aren't even two yet! 

From this....

To this! 

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